hey yoz...I'm back..cos now got not much things to do...so finally got the time to blog...yea...shall continue form yest..so yea..sat wat did i do...eh...oh yea...i was on shift & it was the YEC flea market...wasnt that good thou...but sat was alrite..
sun woke up late cos i was really really very tire after a long week of busy finishing my work & stuff...I'm like working 7 days a week for the past weeks..so super tire & i didnt go for service only went to the meeting for the thanksgiving dinner...& afternoon went for mission trip training session & rush down to expo for concert..so by the end of the day I'm super dead & tire...
Mon came back to work but was hving a real bad headache...today oso...but yest was fun thou...went to MPS to help...& went for dinner with my in charge & her fren..chatted & gossip a lot...finally was able to let out everything...but today was hell..cos ppl was trying to pick on me...& got scolded twice for stupid reasons...argh..cant stand that old lady...but I'm cool..I always look on the bright side...y shld i be bother by stupid low ppl...i shall be cool...weee...later going for supper!!!growing fatter but i dun care cos when sh starts I'm gonna be super busy expected that...by the time i would not hv the time for supper le...shall enjoy now thou office life is hell...but I'm glad there are ppl who care as well...I'm happy...cos I hv God!!!weeee.....I shall not stand on any side but on God's...I'll do wat is right..follow wat is right in His Eyes...
Its a mon tdy...feeling kind of ermmm..how shall describe it...eh...i guess its mon blue or is it juz me..had a really busy week last week..so i slept early yest..at 11 plus(tt's e earliest i guess..)so slp till like 11 this morning...guess wat...i shld be feeling energetic but instead hv a really bad headache...argh...till now i still feel a bit brain dead...think its a result of sleeping too much...hmmm..so wat hv i been doing for the pass week...eh...cant really rmb thou...bad memories...too busy liao...let me think...
oh yea...fri i was hving this jeremy oliver dinner @ fort canning part the legend..it was indeed an eye opener for me la...nv been to this kind of function as a guest(cos normally I'm the server)...well i expected a lot of snobbish(did i spell tt correctly?)ppl...but well i guess it was still alrite..not so bad...there a few snob ppl not the ppl that i hv tok to was okie...thanx to ade who lend me her dress & let me dress up(I'm a tomboy so dun really noe how to..)but i hv a glimpse of the world of wine trade...well...I'll be involve in wine Asia this week...another opportunity for me to learn...weee....like this kind of event...
so sat was working...as usual admin work, counter work...but gotta finish my data entry...shall stop here for a while..will continue later..got things to do...
its a sat...i call it a brain dead day or brain dead sat...I'm really feeling numb now...cos of all e late nite slp due to work as in my attachment plus part time...one is not enuf to make me so brain dead...I totally cant think now...cos I'm freaking tire...haben been slpin enuf for the past few nite & have been slpin at 4, 5 am in the morning...*yawn*...now I'm in the office ready for another boring day of mine in the office later...& waiting for time to pass..but at least not as bad as compared to sun thou...okie..great I cant think now...shall see if my brain works later den maybe I'll continue to blog...
weee...I'm back...seems like I haben been blogging for quite some time liao...but its onli like 4 days onli la...woo..so let see wat I hv i done for e pass 4 days...
well...this few day have been busy la...cos I'm assign quite a few events le...so meaning a lot of work to do & meeting to attend but I'm very happy till I'm a bit high la..u can say I'm a bit workaholic la....hee...been designing posters for the events & doing the admin stuff la..but I'm happy...wee...at least dun hv ot stay in office whole to rot...hate that...like i say I DUN LIKE TO SIT IN OFFICE THE WHOLE DAY!!!it's damn freaking boring...argh...cant wait those events manz...wahahaha....& I cant wait for next week to come thou I super packed next week...cos I hv 4 days off but all e 4 days r packed with events..weee...
so yest was my off day but i didnt work at tasting notes...went swimming in the afternoon & b4 that I was slacking...feel so shiok...hahaha...so long nv slack liao...weee...den went swimming..it feels so good to exercise manz...hahaha..den off to ade's place to pass her the princess hours dvd...cos she cant walk properly yet(lend ppl dvd still nid to deliver it sia..gd service rite)chatted for a while b4 heading to my Youth mentor's place for bible study with Van...hmmm...had a good chat & off i go home...
now I'm here again sitting at the counter AGAIN!!!haiz..nvm..3 MORE WEEKS ONLI & I'M OFF!!!WAHAHAHA!!!3 more weeks but guess I'll still miss this place thou...haiz..but i cant wait to go back to sch manz...weee....but i muz say the timetable sux..pls la...fri make me go back for 1 hr...& i nid to take 1 hour bus ride to sch...haiz...but still timetable is quite slack...at least i can work after that...haha...okie shall stop here...tata...off to slack...haha...
Finally back home afte a long long day out(act I was home @ 12 plus..)...so now I'm dead tire...cos I onli slept for like 5 hours...so after work went to markan with hanson at my place...dunno is who acc who la...but we had a good chat abt sch, life, community work, IPP & stuff like tt la...so after I...me...a girl send a guy to the bus stop..but I'm cool with it la...I'll rather do tt den he send me..cos I'll feel damn weird...I prefer e other way round...haha...so went home..pack my stuff & so on & so forth till like 3+ am b4 i go to bed...woke up at 8...was almost late for nursery duty...luckily there wasnt much kids tdy so wasnt tt tiring..plus i took up e slack job..haha...but e kids was like fight to sit on my lap la...haiz...cannot tahan...so in e end made them sit on e floor...if not I'll get a leg cramp....den went for youth after tt for awhile b4 heading to my youth mentor's place to had my lunch & discuss abt e mission trip to Thailand, Udon Thani...looking forward to it..but now is whether my mum let me go not..once she nod her head..yippeeee.....off i go..I'm dying to go manz...thou that week tt i go will be a week b4 school holiday, which means its my ICA week...all e test test test...but if tt's the will of God I'll go..cos I believe that he'll take care of it all...heez..after which head to upper thomson for the mission trip preparation...its a training..like team building & stuff cos some of us r from different churches...but it was fun & fulfilling & during this time I can feel God speaking to me...heez...got to noe lots of ppl..took up e role of prayer I/C..or i would say prayer coordinator la...dunno if I can do a good job..but I guess it will be fine with e help of God...heez..after that went to meet lala at Harbour front...went to Vivo City..very big but nth fascinating...cos mayb a lot of e shops r not open..but e place is quite classy...saw a lot of new brands...but we felt quite sianz after a while..cos there r juz too many ppl...cant stand it...so we head off...trying to find a destination...cant think both of us were brain dead...mayb cos too much things have been happening...we were like trying to decidew where to go..so we ended up at chinatown...went to maxwell food centre...a lot of e stalls were not open..but we manage to grab something to eat...den cab down to esplanade cos we were too lazy & tire to walk...went to la kopi at Pacific coffee club...it was a long nice chat again...miss those times in sch...chatted abt lots of things...sheesh...secret...so much things to tok abt & to share but juz too little time...& I was thinking to myself..i mean if it is so bad now during our attachment..wouldnt it be worst when we graduate & starts to work...tt'll be bad manz...but wat to do...tt's part & parcel of life I guess...I juz hv to get use to it tt's all...but hopefully it wun be as bad...cos maybe now most of us r unhappy with our attachment..cos its OFFICE WORK!!!ARGH...not mend for SW students...lolx...hopefully all will be fine...cant wait to go back to sch..& it will be the last sem..so sad..time really flies manz...graduating next year....whao...I think I'll miz sch, my kakis alot alot...I'll miss those time manz....oh well..life still goes on...a note for LALA LEE, my best pal:oui...dun keep everything to urself...rmb to shar wor...like wat u tell me to share my burden with u..u oso muz do tt..its juz a phone call away...I'll juz be ur listening ear...I shut up..haha...rmb a burden shared is a burden halved...too much burden will become fat..cos too much weight..hahaha...so muz share e load...heez....anw thanx for hearing me out all e time...& hearing all my crap la...haha..u take care yea...okie tt's tt for now...shall update u ppl next time...till den...bye bye!!
hmmm..tot tt this com would let me change the fonts & the colour of the fonts...but it cant...sad case manz...guess I'll juz hv to change it at home..if not den if i can go to e-club...wahahaha..okie..now I'm sitting at the counter AGAIN!!haiz..really dun like to work on weekend..i mean not say i dun like but its like i dun like to work on weekend in the CC..1 thing I dun like to sit down waiting for time to pass la...juz dun ask me to sit tt's all...i dun mind if u ask me to walk ard or run ard..hop ard..not sit ard..so my conclusion I'm not mend for office job..cos i dun like to sit down at the stupid office setting doing admin work la..not my type of job..I can imagine myself if next time i were to get an office job I'll be dragging myself to work everyday la...den going to work everyday will become a chore..I mean come on la..I wan to go to work each day happily cos tt's my passion..& wat i like to do...if possible la...haha..now I'm juz hoping time will pass faster so i can go back to sch..I miss sch..Imiss my kakis of friends..I miss going to work after sch...I miss going to wine hut to work(cos i miss Frank's cooking...haha..so long nv eat the food tt he cook liao...)argh....I miss going to work @ Tasting Notes oso...I miss Byrick...miss so many things la...nvm...4 more weeks & I'm off...hang on there...okie..shall blog later if I'm bored again...
weee....here I am @ e-club...the onli place i can have my own privacy...& blog here quietly...4 more weeks & off I go..I shall hang on...oh well...as usual my Off day yesterday at Tasting Notes...I always more them happy to work there...so yest was at a function...boring cos not much ppl la...but I had a good chat with my boss thou at Tasting Notes...he's a nice guy la..oh yea...he ask me if i got a boyfriend...nope of cos...he asked y...well reason: I think its not the time now...& I've made a promise with God that I will not go into a relationship till I'm 21...well to many it might be a joke but to me...I'm taking it seriously cos I believe that when its the right time my the other half will show...it will all depend on God's timing for me..anw I fine being single & I'm enjoying it ver much...hving lots of fun with me friends...hmm...someone ask me this question...wat do u see urself in 10 years time..I said I'll be happily doing wat I like to do...a camp instructor & organiser...doing youth work..but i noe that I'll nv noe wat happen in ten years time maybe not even in 2 years...cos life is unpredictable..u'll nv noe wat will happen next...maybe I can see myself in 1 years time that I'll be working at Tasting Notes*full stop*...tt's all...i mean I hv a lot of dream..a lot of things i wanna do..in fact too much...but 10 years down the road things might change & for now I just treasure wat I have b4 i lose them...tt's wat i think...sometimes being content is not a bad thing...life will be happier & simpler...wat do u think??okie that makes me sounds old rite..but I muz say after the death of Byrick..I've been thinking a lot...& that has make me grow up much much more i guess...hopefully a better person...hahaha...about my future I'm not too sure...but maybe I'll like to go overseas to study...but of cos the money...so gotta work real hard...giving myself 2 to 3 years to work at Tasting Notes & hopefully Tasting Notes will grow...regionally...tt's wat my hope for it...& my goal...till den shall stop crapping...hahaha..watever the case I'll hold on to God to give the strength throu all this....& till den tata..& take care all my friends...dying to go back to sch...cant wait...hahaha
here I m in office again(I wonder I think i hv said tt many times liao)...hearing all the aunties nagging non-stop...gossipping abt others...I was wondering r dey so bored till they hv to do all these...they really got too much time manz...till they hv to gossip...haiz..well even thou i got nth to do but i juz shut my mouth & do my work...argh...I'm going crazy over all these bo liao stuff liao..save me manz...now i'm sitting in front of e computer doing nth cos they got nth to let me do..den later they complain tt i got nth to do...& I'm slacking...haiz...wat is this manz...pls gif me some work to do manz..if not I'll really be bored to death...*cry*...off to slack...
hey yoz...so now I'm back in the office...sitting at the counetr as usual*yawn*...feeling tire cos I was at sentosa earlier on for a recce trip...woke up at 8+ & I was almost late...suppose to be there meeting them @ 9am...slp very late last nite la..as usual...I can never slp early...so later will be going out with Clara & Kong to la kopi...chill out lo..so long nv hang out with them...
anw...yest was at the woman day out event..took part in the 3hrs aerobics challenge & I almost died..too long nv exercise...& this morning my body was aching so badly...esp my back la...haiz..muz admit that I'm old liao..but tt's the physical..inside me I'm still young & youthful manz...wahahaha...but it was fun thou...like to exercise & like to perspire...wahahaha...its gd perspiring out..okie..1 & a haif more hours to go & I'm OFF!!!wahahaaha...dun hv to stay in office till 10...it will bored me to death manz...okie..off to watch youtube now...weeee....
feel a sudden urge to blog abt this...dun ask y...i myself am not so sure...its that kind of feeling that juz fill ur heart all of the sudden...well..to be frank I envy ppl who can afford the money to go overseas for adventure sport like diving, rockclimbing & so on & so fore...it is nice & fun & I'll very much like to do that one day...that's my dream to try every adventure sport given a chance...& my greatest dream...backpacking...and I guess God give me this passion, bcos I love to go on mission trip to meet different ppl & to learn different culture I think it is very fun...That's y I love my job as a server...I meet different kind of ppl everyday & I get to tokt o them abt everything, from there I learn something new everyday..its fun & interesting...God gif me that ability to engage with ppl...but now I hv my responsibility to take care of..
Like wat I said earlier on I'll be working in Tasting Note after I graduate but I wun be there forever, of cos I muz say I love the job there cos I tok & learn from different ppl everyday..I love going to function cos every function gif different experience...& of cos I'm falling in love with wine...its very very interesting..cos every bottle has its own charateristic juz like human being...even thou its from the same grape, same vine or same barrel...there are wine which are shy, but yet some are bold...haha...that's wat I learn from byrick...be imaginative & creative abt wine...dun restrict urself or the wine...hmmm..okie a bit too far out back...so as i was saying I'm giving myself 2 years or max 3 years there & after that if I find that its time for me to go pursue my dream of either going overseas to study or there's opportunity for me to become a camp instructor & at the end of the day organise camp I'll go for it...and at the end of the day serving God & working with youth...it werent be easy...there a lot of challenge ahead of me but I'll manage well...God will bring me thru...I'm very very sure...200% sure abt this..well..guess its time to stop here...starting work soon...till den everyone...take care...
hmmm...feeling kind of bored now...but glad i hv the radio here...act dunno wat to write..okie..so yest I was working at tasting notes cos its my off day...I was enjoying myself la...cos I went to this function...supposedly a art exhibition...quite interesting...the way artist wan to express themselves u'll never noe..admire their creativity...so i was cutting cheese & serving wine to the ppl...I was enjoying myself very much cos its like finally i dun hv to be in the office the whole day doing nth...met different kind of people & was toking to them...some ppl ask me abt wine so I juz answer them watever I noe...so out of sudden this lady asked:Lady: who's ur shifu?Me: ................my shifu...My shifu is Byrick NG.Lady: Oh...Me: But he passed away juz last monday...Lady: Oh.............Me: Looking for a new shifu to learn abt wine now...Lady: Okie...But I noe deep in my heart no one can replace that place in my heart...now I'm trying hard to learn wine on my own...or shld i say with the team of part timers & staff at Tasting Notes...trying to find out watever I can myself...I use to take it for granted that its okie u noe..i can take my time to learn cos Byrick will always be there & I can always ask him whenever I wan to so no rush...but now I regret hving to think like that...but I guess tt's wat Byrick wan too...for me to hv my own theory & philosophy abt wine from watever I've learn...well..now that I've to really read up on my own now..cos my shifu is no longer ard...but I'll manage well with the help of the staff from Tasting Notes...Thank You pei pei for teaching me so much now I'll hv to embark on a journey w/o the help of you now...but rest assure that I'll do beta den u did...heee...Thank You for bringing me into the world of wine...Think I'm slowly falling in love with wine....
Today's e 9th day oredi...hmmm..okie..it doesn't hurt so much anymore...pulling myself up...yea...I'm now learning how to be independent...learning all over again abt wine...Byrick...I'm gonna learn beta den u....blah =p...I'm gonna learn more den u...wahahaha...hope tt will make u proud...well...tdy I've learnt something..humility & gentleness from Our Daily Bread...tt's wat a lot of ppl lack nowadays..ppl onli think abt pride & harshness which they mark it as success...but the truth is...humility & gentleness win e battle...tt's wat I think personally...isnt wat byrick use to do...he's confident in work but never arrogant...tt in turn gain all of our respect...cos he genuinely care for his staff even part timer..he's always willing to teach...& he will ask us for advice as well...so tt i felt is something I can learn from him...God may u teach e to be humble & gentle...& guide us thru this time of trials...be our pilot Lord...In Jesus name I prayAmen
yup...here I am again...finally find some time to blog again...not that busy today...now am sitting at the counter typing this entry...I can tell you..i really dun like this attachement...cos of the office politics that got me involved...not directly but indirectly & I choose to ignore it..cos I find it no point at all...y not juz sit down & do my work instead of wasting my time doing things that do not serve any purpose but hurt others for my own pleasure...so sickening...anw...continue from where I stop..so after that I went to the place where the accident took place with Wendy...brought a Lily flower for Byrick...his favourite flower..saw the scratch mark..its juz a short distance only...dunno wat's he doing la...haiz...so head home & realise that I left my handphone at Tasting Notes...stupid me...haiz...super tire...doze off on the sofa...& the next morning my back was like super pain la...my neck too...sad case manz...
yea so now here's some short little note:
To Clara: Thank for being there for me...noe u urself are feeling damn sad & tire but u r always there to support me...& thanx for that super touching letter of ur's...luv u clara lee*muackz*...u urself muz take care to...sorry for making u cry tt day with me...heee..but i very shuang for doing that...rare chances of making u cry manx....wahahaha...
To Wendy: U r equally sad I noe...hey stay strong gal...Byrick dun wan to see us like that...& pls take care...u cant please everyone all the time cos its gonna make u super tire...there's always a limit...balance ur stuff...sorry for making u cry like waterfall that day in the office...hee...
To Kendy: Sometime I juz feel like slaughtering u cos of wat u said but this is not wat u meant...but still thank for the tag...i noe I haben been myself...but u r always there as well...waiting silently...thanx my pal..
To Van: hey gal..thanx for crying with me...thou u might not see this but thanx...thanx for listening & supporting me...luv u manx...hahaha...sheesh I wun tell anyone that u cry with me....hee...
To Hanson: thanx for watever u said to me...& thanx for the care & concern & thanx for trying to be "nice" to me(thou it didnt work much)..anw thanx for letting me suan...hahaha...
To Loretta: Thank for ur willingness to help Tasting Notes...& thanx fo rur soncern...I'm okie now...still as strong as ever...hahaha...u too mux take care yea...dun tire urself out too much..there's always a limit that ur body can take...
To my Youth Mentor: Thanx for that listening ear & the advice given...if not I'll be damn lost...
To Jill: Hey gal...be strong k...Byrick dun wan to see you like this...& I oso wan to thank you for carrying on Byrick's passion in wine...thank you for staying strong to support the dream & passion of his...& thanks for all e effort...noe that u r tire...so dun tire urself out so much yea...rmb to take...eat well, slp well...& SMILE K...I wan to see that Jill that I use to see...always smiling so happily...I'll try my best to gif to assist u in watever ways I can...it wun b much juz a little but hope it still helps...hahaha..I noe i crap la...& DUN KEEP THINKING ABT BYRICK LA!!!ALWYAS SAY U MISS HIM!!!SO DUN MISS ME LA!!!I LOOK BETA DEN HIM LO...it's a fact...wahahahahaha!!!opps...sheesh.....so yea...rmb he has gone to a place where he finally can rest(i dun wan to see him sleep & drool like nobody's business liao so..so smelly some more..)hahaha...he'll always remain in our hearts...all the memories...& the best present for him is not to be sad...but rmb wat he has tot us & rmb it & apply or even make it beta & improve it...make him proud of us...make him jealous cos we do so well...hahaha...
To my frenz: I dunno who else I left out but I'm really sorry...Thanx for watever u hv done & in watever ways given support to me...Thank you from deep down...LUV U ALL*MUACKZ*....Okie...I think tt's all I guess.......off to work.....
okie...continue from where I left....
well...on fri...went to work as usual in the after...it ws Byrick's Funeral tt day...didnt intend to go...cos I dun wan to cry there on the last day...& I cant possibly skip work again...cos act I'm not suppose to take compassionate leave on mon but my supervisor act allow tt thou Byrick was juz a fren so I'm really grateful to him oredi & didnt wan to cause more trouble for him for approving my urgent leave...but wendy called @ 11 plus almost 12 & ask me if i wan to go...cos she felt the urge to go...I was like Byrick is leaving at 12pm, I mean they are leaving for Mandai at 12 & it will take me at least half an hour for me to go pasir ris from my place...so even if i rush there it will be 12 plus...they would hv left the place...argh..so after much discussion...I told wendy to forget it...to me its no point...so yea...went to work...a long day of data entry...it sux la okie...make me so tire...den rush down to SAFRA Changi for Church retreat..I mean Youth Mentor & Youth Leaders retreat...cant help but cry my way there on the cab & after I reach here cry again...sux...cos felt damn sad...argh...not suppose to cry anymore...but I guess it made me felt beta I guess...Thanx to Van...thanx for ur presence there...
saturday it was all day of fun & laughter for me went to sch in the morning after Mac breakfast...den back to the chalet...it was free & easy time so I went to nap for a while 4 we head to bowling & arcade it was damn fun..I totally enjoy myself very very much...cos I wasnt thinking abt anything & I felt very relax...afetr that we had BBQ...weeeee....hahaha....had lots of food la...& there stupid game that we played made me eat & eat...need to exercise more oredi liao..getting fat...so tok to my youth mentor abt my attachment cos need some advice from him..thanx to him...now i noe how to handle the problem that hv been bothering me..so now its to solve it...after that wanted to go to the beach for star gazing but we were all to tire so decided to chat in the room till 2 plus almost 3...den went to bed...
woke up at 7+ in the morning..damn tire...den had a worship session...it was...I would use peaceful to describe...haha..after that pack up head back to church...had prayer time with the rest of the youth but I was stoning cos I'm damn freaking tire...but after that it was like back to reality...this sadness juz came back...argh...I went to Tasting Notes after the prayer time...it looks all the same but yet felt so different..went into the cellar & this sudden sadness juz made me wan to cry but yet i cant...I dun wan to let Jill cry...she looks different oso...you can see tt sadness in her eyes...haiz...but anw thanx for her children's day presnt..haha...a cake from canele(dunno if i spell correctly)...mont blanc...very nice...hope she'll be alrite...but she's trying very very hard...learning everything on her way...Jill thanx for that passion...Thanks for hanging on there...keep up the gd work...all the way...
okie..shall continue later when I'm free...nid to go work now...stay tune ppl...
okie...its been a week...my weekend was full of fun, relax, tireness, sadness, excitment, enjoyment & a whole lot of mix feelings la(argh..my hair keeps dropping recently la...is it cos too much have been happening recently...stress induced manz) the truth is it still hurt...but guess I'm recovering well...thanx to my frenz, Youth mentor, those who hv lend me a listening ear & hv cried with me..thanx my pals...luv u guys...Think I'll start from thur....Okie...thur after work went down to the wake with Wendy & Jenn..initially it ws fine...juz felt a bit sad..but Jenn started crying...& Wendy & me started crying as well...it was kind of sad & all of sudden I felt very lost...well was chatting with Hanson in the morning on MSN & he mention that it was time to be independent & so on...but it was real hard job to do...& i really got no idea how shld i do it...was like how shld i do w/o him ard to guide me...den stayed till 3+ felt so tire & left for home cos I still nid to work in the afternoon...was toking to Lydia..had a good chat with abt a lot a lot of stuff from Byrick to Sistina(the restaurant that I use to work at & that was the place that I met Byrick, & started out in the F&B industry, & my 1st workplace)...but she mentioned something really true..Its ur funeral that determine ur success as a person...cos at the end of e day..if u r successful as a person like Byrick...during ur funeral...ppl will tok abt u abt how u treated ppl so nicely..ppl cry cos they felt they hv lost someone special & impt...& ppl will rmb u as a nice person who hv helped them in a way or another but let say u r not successful as a person..cos u treat ppl like shit & thinks that ppl cant live w/o u & stuff like tt..I think during ur funeral ppl wun be toking much abt u...not that they dun wan or wat cos ppl thinks that...its okie la...he/she's already dead...dun wan to tok abt anything bad during the wake la...tt's I felt is damn true...I mean Byrock's wake every sentence that we said is abt him...cos he's such a good guy...shall continue later...nid to go to tasting notes to take my phone..left it there las nite....stay tune...
