hmmm..so wat have i been doing for the past few days..working...resting at home cos sick monster attack me...yea..I"M SICK...like ever since i came back from thailand...and act was getting better and that day when i went back to work..all e stupid smoke(which i hate it..argh) and late slping plus chocolate(shouldnt have eat so much)...argh...so it got worst like again...and yesterday work till like 2 plus..went to eat supper so by the time i get home is like almost 4 in the morning..now my voice is so sexy after today's event...argh...okie...enuf of that..so tdy's event was hell...quite alright actually but a lot of last min hiccups...so gotta solve all the problems like last min...but Thanx God that things went well after all....oh..anw tdy's event was act called Dancing Cashew..okie sound very Community Centre type but it is....not my idea but they insist..so yea...not fantastic but okie la...one things I didnt put in alot of effort...and a lot of last min info...and i gotta get everything rite like last min..but well I guess I've learnt a lot at the end of the whole event...haha...how to better manage such a stage event the next time if given a chance la..anw during the event Jiab called!!!like wow..I miss them so much and I was toking to Paow just now online...anw they are my friends from thailand...haha...miss them like so so much...i wonder y is Jiab not online..like i told her that I'll be online tonite...hmmm..okie..maybe some techinical error...but i do hope tt I'll be able to go back to Udon soon...I miss that place and of cos the team whom I worked with...haiz...okie..so tdy is the eve of the eve of New Year...wishing everyone HAPPY NEW YEAR in advance...haha...going out with my friends to markan and chill out b4 sch start..cos i foresee tt it will be busy busy busy..so trying to slack as much as possible b4 that...haha...waiting for next year...waiting for the next thailand trip...when will it be??
okie...like finally..so sch's internet is down and supposedly to finish research in sch tdy but in the end gotta do it at home...sad manz...and next tue need to go to national library to do research...argh...its like beginning of the year and gotta stress over project and ICA...ahhhhhhh.........*cry*..haiz...nvm...another 2 month plus and off i go le....haiz..meaning I'm leaving sch!!!!sad manz...leaving my frenz le..
okie..so wat hv i been doing...slacking as usual..working after a long 2 weeks break...but it was damn slack yesterday...nobody cos of the rain...good and bad...good cos i nid to warm up a bit...bad I'm damn bored la...juz cant stand when there's nobody...and it was raining when I'm going home yesterday...it was like so cold la...act suppose to take bike home but too dangerous cos of e rain so take cab..safer...anw...hope when sch reopen things will still turn out fine..cos when sch reopen means busy busy busy..with proj, exam and work...meaning no time to slp..*cry*....nvm...God will give me rest after tt....weeeee...heee..but now I still quite blur abt my future..dunno where to go after tt...hmmm..pray that God will gif me direction....okie..take care my frenz...bye...
back again to blog after a long long time...okie la..not so long actually...hahaha...okie I'm being lame again le...anw...so today's Christmas and how did I spend it..with my family lo...its been so long since i last spend time with my family le...and so good to have dinner at home!!home cooked food is still e best..might not b e best but it warms your heart...heee...So Christmas Eve was spend with my S4 at Hangout @ Mt Emily...a budget Hotel by Cathay but not bad thou...good food good scenery at the rooftop and good company of friends!!!and most imptly not at orchard with all the hustle and bustle and the squeezing with other ppl...hahaha...always good to spend time with friends at those place...true friends are hard to come by and they are a bunch of friends who went thru many ups and downs with me since sec sch days....spend a crazy day with my S4 doing crazy stuff...hahaha...tt's y we are call S4 cos we do stupid things...heee....laugh till I wan to cry manz...haha...so we were shooting "MTV" in e room and taking stupid photos...haha....it was fun....BUT...school starting soon...which means PROJECT!!!argh.....sian...back to work and more work...but few more month b4 i graduate...so few more month to go onli!!!JIA YOU!!hahaha....well..with God everything is possible....oh yea...since today is Christmas let's not forget the real meaning of Christmas which is Christ's Birthday...hee...so the best gift for him is to give urself!!!anw MERRY CHRISTMAS TO ALL MY FRIENDS!!!and God Bless!!
hihi...I'm back after a long time....Just came back from Udon Thani, Thailand from Mission Trip with my church member and 2 other churches...The place where my team and I went is the North Eastern part of Thailand so its pretty cold...And I must say that this trip has renew my faith in God and also it has been a time of restoration for me and God as in my relationship with God...I really thank God for it for bringing me closer to Him....And I've known a ot of new friends from the Bapist Church there....like Phaow, Nong and Jiab...Miss them so so much and of cos not forgetting the team I have been working with for the past week...well..all of sudden i felt lead to blog this about i got to noe God and how I'm different now compared to last time...I think this is a way of thanking Him for changing me....well a little background knowledge about me first...well...i came to noe God since i was in primary school and accepted him into my heart when i was 12 but didnt really noe Him in the sense i didnt attend a Church...anw i came from a buddhist family...but strange enuf my mum sent me to a Christian primary school...so yea...so i left Him for a long time...Sec sch life I must say was great or i tot it is...my charcter I always think that I can do everything and there's nth which is impossible for me to do....and i must say I am very headstrong kind of person and self centered i would say....but the fact there is a limit to where i can do....as i must say that i went thru a very very difficult time in my sec sch but I always try to be optimisstic...the truth is many a times i have crying alone in my room not knowing wat to do...and frankly e tot of death did come across my mind b4 and i even try to hurt myself b4....come to think back how stupid...haha....so when i was in sec 3 that yr...my grandma's health has turn from bad to worst and many a times I'll hv to come home early to bring dinner for her, change her bed sheet cos she shit on it and so on...and I didnt do well for my test and exam also...so I feel very very stress....so many nites i'll be crying in the toilet or in the room....and when my grandma pass away it was worst as I was very close to her(she's e one who brought me up..)...i was very very sad as i dun have that hope....and den came sec 4 where we have to decide where to go after that and you sch always have this programme to brainwash students to be "successful" and all....and i was very "inspire" to become successful and to do wat i like....well i study real hard for O's...grades was okie....after O's i started working part time...another difficult time as i have some problems with my dad....and I started to hate him....another stressful time when there was a time i felt depress and been crying myself to sleep...and when Poly started, i didnt stop working my part time job....i worked hard cos i didnt want to end up like my mum...cos i didnt want to have a "hard" life...and life was the same from day to day except when i go out with my friends and all...i still hate my dad, hate my life and life was with a purpose and there wasn't any hope...its seems like i was living in darkness...but then God brought me back to Him...a friend brought me to the church that i attend now....where i got to noe God again and to build a relationship with Him....For the 1st time in so long I wake up in the morning feeling refreshed and i see light in my life...I see that purpose in my life...of cos Its not like magic which happen in an instance...it took time...I learnt how to love...i didnt hate my dad anymore(thou i cant say i can forgive him now...slowly i will forgive him....)and i learn how to care for others...of cos i learnt some throu e hard way cos God didnt promise a bed of roses...God didnt promise a life without trial or suffering but God promise a way out and he also promise strength and rest....Ask and it will be given...That's His promise....And my life now...full of hope...of cos life is still the same but God changed my perspective...now my everyday is full of praise for Him and i muz say I dont cry at nite alone anymore...I onli do that when God touches my heart...and everyday is joyful no matter wat happen...Cos I have God's promise....and I have Him in my life to guide me...and I've found that hope....and of cos I thank Him for that change of heart to care for ppl....
Its e beginning of Dec and its end of e year..so fast....X'mas is aroound e corner & straight after tt is new year....a busy year with lots of ups and down....been thinking a lot recently...feeling sad cos I'm graduating and I'm gonna miss my friends very very much..and I'm working soon after I graduate...but I'm planning to rest for probably a month 1st b4 i start work to go overseas...I was thinking of Japan...juz to relax and to do some reading and stuff...1st is to brush up my wine knowledge and oso other knowledge as well....So sch is starting to get reall busy with all e projects and tests coming up..plus I'm going to thailand on a mission trip from the 12th to 18th of dec and there will be a big event coming up on e 30th of dec...super stress now...worried if it will turn out well....plus all e test and all...I was hoping to do well this sem cos its the last semester and I wanted to at least maintain my grades..plus i also wanted to do well for the event...argh...no time manz....and i nid to do get things all done b4 i set off to Thailand....argh....and I've been hving headache for e past 2 days....its making me feel dizzy at times...and I'm also losing my appetite recently....been feeling very tire and slpy....but I'm looking forward to the thailand trip yet I hv a lot of worries...HOW!!???okie...enuf of complain nid to get back to work....if not i got no time le...rather den spending time complaining i shld be doing my work....chop chop....bye..off to do proj...
